Foreword: It has taken me a long time to get up the courage to post this. Nearly six months. Half a year of agonizing. But because so much of this blog revolves around my life, it only makes sense that you get an idea of where I've been the past year and a half. I originally meant to post this Jan. 1, 2014, but I wasn't ready. I don't think I'll ever be ready, so here goes nothing:
It has been a crazy year. Part of the reason that I haven't written anything in such a long time is because so much has been happening. But now we are approaching 2014, so it's time to say goodbye to 2013. For this purpose, I am going to list the best and worst things that have happened to me this year. Some of it will be pretty rough. And some of it is awesome. There are a lot of stories that I will write more about at another time. But for now, here is 2013. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...
As a note, this particular blog is almost more for me than it is for you. I need a way to express what has been going on. So if you enjoy having a look into my life, awesome, but if you are one of those people who is going to claim that I'm looking for attention, then kindly go fuck yourself. You don't have to read if you don't want to, and some of this is going to get a little angsty and possibly TMI. This is your warning. Get out now if you don't want to deal with that.
Bad news first.
1. My parent's divorce was finalized.
2. My parents are moving out of our home. Therefore, I spent Christmas packing all of my belongings and throwing away all of the things and memories that I could not find space for in my apartment. Merry fucking Christmas. It is especially hard because we all helped to build this house. It is sort of customized to us. I at least feel like it is a part of me, and I am losing that. It breaks my heart to look at my empty room. Plus I feel completely homeless now because there is nowhere for me to think of as the family home.
3. I walked in on my dad in bed with the woman he left my mom for.
4. My car was hit the day I moved to Wisconsin.
5. That day also turned into Tequila Night in which five of us finished a 1.75 of tequila from Costco. It was not good.
6. I informed my bosses that I would not be returning for the 2013 school year in September and spent January to June dodging their attempts to convince me to stay. Many people tell me I should be flattered, but it was really just aggravating.
7. I maxed out my credit card.
8. I have had more fights and arguments with friends and family than I have had in years. A lot of it is because I am so stressed out and wound up from constantly hiding how much I am breaking right now. But that is no excuse and I'm sorry.
9. My grandparents on my father's side passed away within 72 hours of each other.
10. Felix got out of the apartment and was gone for three stressful days.
11. Mocha got out of the apartment and was gone for five stressful days.
The BEST of Times:
1. I fell in love.
2. I moved to Milwaukee and am living with two of my best friends as well as only a short distance away from two more of my best friends and boyfriend.
3. I got a job substitute teaching and I LOVE it! The kids are fantastic, and even though I hate getting up insanely early, I love going to work.
4. I am still making money off of my writing.
5. Tequila Night. It was awesome.
6. I stuck to my guns and left my job rather than give up what I wanted in order to help people. Even though I was offered a huge raise. I'm much happier where I am now.
7. I am successfully living on my own, paying bills, and being a (semi) adult.
8. I found time to work more on my novel. Five chapters away from completing the first draft!
9. I started reading for fun again. I used to read 100+ pages a day in middle and high school but lost the drive when I was in college and reading for classes. I really enjoy being able to sit down with a book of my choosing again.
10. I lost 18 pounds, and I'm still losing.
11. I'm happy :)
What are some things that have been going right for you? Share in the comments!
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